It was hard to leave for work this morning after enjoying 10 straight days with the girls. Sandy brought me her coat and was insistent on coming with.

I’m planning on taking a couple of months of FMLA when Clementine’s adoption goes through. My guess is that’ll be in September.

"I feel like they really hate me"

- Meghan said it today and Runfostermama has said it too. 

Something is really wrong when a thick-skinned former ACS worker and an attorney feel this way about their foster agencies and ACS staff at the start of foster parenting.

I can vouch that both Meghan and Runfostermama don’t have an abrasive bone in their bodies (unlike me, unfortunately).  I feel liked at my agency, but it took a really long time.  I always hear it’s the ‘adversarial’ nature of foster care and the courts- but why can’t we change that already?

Happy 6th birthday, Jacket.

All of this face covering is coming from ‘the doors on the bus go open and shut, open and shut…’ 

Clemmie’s fav is the wipers on the bus going swish swish swish.

All of this face covering is coming from ‘the doors on the bus go open and shut, open and shut…’

Clemmie’s fav is the wipers on the bus going swish swish swish.

Aunt Gwen brought the girls a bunch of goodies included a princess set that was a big hit.

Aunt Gwen brought the girls a bunch of goodies included a princess set that was a big hit.

So sad it’s our last day…

So sad it’s our last day…

Lunch yesterday at aunt Gwen’s new restaurant “Tide Tables”.  The fish tacos were delicious!

Lunch yesterday at aunt Gwen’s new restaurant “Tide Tables”. The fish tacos were delicious!

Sandy loves to run after the seagulls and Clementine loves to try and catch the wind.  I love to lay down flat on my face and rest whenever possible.

Sandy loves to run after the seagulls and Clementine loves to try and catch the wind. I love to lay down flat on my face and rest whenever possible.

Apparently it’s national sibling day.  Clementine’s siblings are to officially be transferred to Runfostermama in 8 days- god I hope it happens.

Apparently it’s national sibling day. Clementine’s siblings are to officially be transferred to Runfostermama in 8 days- god I hope it happens.

So glad Logan is here in Florida with us!

So glad Logan is here in Florida with us!

Why do I care where Snap’s brother ends up? Why is my blood boiling? I tried, isn’t that all that matters? Don’t I have enough going on with my two girls?

I don’t really know what’s behind my anger. Maybe it’s everything. Maybe it’s nothing. I know I used to believe that our justice system was usually accurate. That bad people went to jail. Good people don’t lose their kids. I don’t think I can let go of that worldview.

And really, going back to the beginning- I don’t know what’s best for kids in the system. I do know what was taught in MAPP class and all I ask is that everyone in child welfare be trained on the same mission.

And the (unlicensed) staff at Snap’s brother’s foster agency told Meghan she would need a new homestudy. Since when did kinship foster care need a new homestudy? One was done THIS WEEK.

If my tax dollars are spent to write a new one, that’s one letter campaign I may not be able to resist.

Has a case worker ever gotten in trouble for knowingly lying in court? I see it often. Not maliciously, but more path-of-least-resistance or covering a coworker’s ass.

If not, how would that happen? Shouldn’t it happen? Just curious.

It’s so interesting to see and hear Meghan’s perspective in court. To hear her shock and anger about the lies told even though she is an attorney. I can only conclude that at some point the liars thought they were signing their lives up to help kids- have had such horrible experiences that they are on cruise control, emotionally checked-out, and have had extensive experience spouting out canned lies that usually work because the families they testify against are already beaten down and disadvantaged.

Now I don’t know what to believe anymore. Where are the supervisors? Where are the licensed social workers? There definitely isn’t one helping to make decisions in Snap’s brother’s life. Maybe they perform dental surgery too- that would be safer I’m afraid…